A car traveling 100 mph would take more than 29 million years to reach the nearest star
Yes, she's back blogging. After exhausting every other avenue of procrastination (including a very satisfying game of Monopoly, two movies, planning her computer buying, good old text-twist, and even 'spin the bottle - truth or dare' over the last few days) the blogspot has called itself to her attention.
She is also wondering why she externalises her life so much and prefers the third person narrative, especially in times of emotional turmoil. This is one for the psych students out there (Nathan? Doug, kind of?)
Yesterday she did absolutely zero work on her honours project. yes, this project that she really really wants to write as soon as possible. Today in fact she hasn't been much better. It seems to be a struggle to emerge from the covers before midday. Today she felt as if her head was exploding. Yesterday too. Possibly partially caffeine induced, emotional stress, and the workload mixed in with the complete absence of desire to work on her honours project. However - she did have a pretty good day today, she went to Riccarton Mall card-shopping with a friend, she went to the Ilam twilight fair and bought rhubarb chutney with Lis, Joy, Jeff and Kate, (I presume it's a j Jeff but it might be a g ge-off), and she even did maybe a maximum of two hours work. Maybe. Plus she sang with Jenna, cheered Jenna up (J is not looking forward to Monday's contract exam) and talked to the family friend around for dinner, and rang Mindy for a boy analysis talk. And had a delicious meal. Now if she could just wake up, and if her head could stop hurting, well, it'll be 10pm soon and that sounds like a great time to start writing stuff for her report. yeah! It would be great.
Biggest conundrum of the year - why is it that the boys she likes never like her back ? and then other boys jump out of the woodwork who *are* interested, so she tries to like them back but just can't?? Does she perhaps portray a different image of herself to who she really is? does she pick the wrong boys for herself? is she scared of relationship commitment so only goes after the unattainable? does she only relax enough to like someone after she's already decided they're unattainable? why does she change her mind so often too? The worst case - those boys who think they like her, she then thinks she might be able to like them back, then they change their mind - they're totally entitled to and it is understandable, but it still sucks. But then - does she really know what or who she wants anyway? Maybe she doesn't really like them after all, she just wants to since they like her.
Maybe she's just a little overtired and caffeine hyped adn emotionally messy at the moment. Everything will turn out just fine and the way it's meant to anyway! smile Lara!!!!